For as long as I remember, I have always wanted to be a teacher and now I am one. Don't get me wrong I love teaching and interact with the kids. Well, mine is not really kids but they are young adult aka teenagers. So, sometime they gave me headache and sometime they pissed me off but at the same time, they make me laugh and happy. I really enjoy teaching them and be with them.
It is my believe that just be who you are when you are teaching but I know that is impossible. It will make the kids lost their respect of you. Thus, I'm a believer of 'Be firm but fun' at the same time and that who I am when I'm with my kids. I know some of the teachers don't even smile at their students and I can't imagine myself being one of those teachers and there are some teachers who are just too friendly with their students and I know I cant be one of those teachers. I can see that when the teachers are to friendly with their students, the students tend to be disrespectful towards those teachers and I hate it when I see that.
I'm not saying that I already found the 'me' when I'm with my kids. After all, I only started teaching for about 100 days. So, I still have the difficulties trying to find 'her'. I think I might come off Hot and Cold to the kids and I hate that sometime. Sometime, I don't even know to act around them. Heck, not just around the kids but also around other teachers. It is safe to say that I'm socially awkward.
I'm not going to lie but right now, I'm still trying to find another job. When I said I love teaching, I'm telling the truth but what I don't like is that the side jobs that come with it. I dread it to my bone. There was this one time when I was told that I might handle students scout and I hate the thought of doing it. I thought of it for almost a week before telling the principal that I can't do it and I can't handle it. Within that 1 week itself, my productivity was down. My teaching was awful and I cant enjoy teaching my kids. Thank God, the principal listen to me and didn't give it to me. But of course, there are other things given to me then, where I'm become the adviser for BEES and also supervisor for the school netball team. I don't mind doing these but what I mind was that I have to go home at 6 pm the earliest for the netball practices. Thou, I don't mind doing those as I am with those who take advantages of me. Oh dear other people, you might think I'm nice but trust me that I am not. I might smile at you but trust me you irked me so much.
So, it is the school holiday and of course as a new daily paid teacher, I can't apply for the holiday. Hence, I'm still coming to school to work. Again, I don't mind that but what I mind is that I still have to supervise students for their netball practices and it feels like instead of having four supervisors for it, there is only one supervisor aka me? Yeah, its not like I need the time to spend with my family and try to regroup myself before the school reopen. loving it! *sarcastic tone*
But yeah, I'm still able to do those things because when I can't do it, I will tell the person in-charge right away.
That's all for me and TATA for now.
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